...the lies I weave are oh so intricate...

...i can't resist and i can't behave...

Fri, 19 Mar 2010 00:33:09 GMT

This week is thankfully almost ever. It's felt like it has been about a thousand times longer than it actually has. Time's been going slow at work and fast at home, and in the end, I've mostly just not known if I was coming or going.

Thankfully tomorrow is friday \o/. Yay friday. Plus we have a Revolution Seminar. Which will be my third one, and I'm so NOT looking forward to it since we're pretty much going to be going over everything we already know... but we get free lunch, and if I can snag a good spot, I can hide from where anyone else can see me and just daydream my way through it.

Then there's the weekend (yay weekend). And then there's just next week to get through. 12 sleeps until the surgery.

And then for some reason, out of the blue, I remembered that leopardchic79 is coming up the first weekend in July for Pride/Canada Day/Independence Day. And that made me ridiculously happy!!!

April will be a complete write off. May and June I'll be focused on rehab and getting stronger. Then Rhonda!!

Oooh, and apparently, my cousin is having her baby's shower that weekend (really??? the long weekend in July?) So Rhonda, you're so coming. Apparently it's immediate family only, and god knows they won't turn down me actually bringing someone to a family function.. *muahahahahaha* So yeah. If you don't mind, we'll be going to that (it'll be held at some restaurant afterwards and I'm pretty sure it's paid.. so BONUS... and knowing Kelly it'll be swanky...) Hahahahha.

Worst cousin ever. Or you know, best cousin ever. Some of this, some of that.

Guh.

I need some excitement. NOW!

...ain't nobody mention my pedigree...

Tue, 16 Mar 2010 23:46:46 GMT

First awesome thing from today? A package came today from leopardchic79 ! *twirls* Inside? Fun stuffs. A word searchbook (love them), a cute cat stuffed animal, Veronica Mars season 1 \o/ and some other fun stuffs.

HOLLA! I love boxes of awesomeness coming in the mail.

Second awesome thing from today? Actually, it was more fun than awesome but still.

As I'm leaving work to go to the physiotherapist's office for my ACL brace fitting a conversation was had...

co-worker 1: so what colour are you going to get?
me: i doubt I'll be able to get a specific colour
co-worker 2: you should ask. see what colour you can get.
me: if anything, it'll probably be nude
co-worker 2: NUDE??
co-worker 1: yeah, skin colour.

*to which we discussed what colour exactly 'skin' colour is and i said where they mix a colour that matches your specific skin colour as opposed to a generic 'skin' colour*

Fast forward about an hour and a bit where some dude is measuring my thigh and knee and calf... we're discussing the brace and fitting and so forth.

man: so, i just have one more thing to discuss
me: okay
man: what colour do you want the brace?
me: *BURST OUT LAUGHING*. What?
man: *pulls out a catalogue* What colour would you like the brace? you can have it in muted colour, metalic or patterned *hands me the catalogue*
me: oh my god, we were joking about this earlier. i didn't want to ask in case it sounded stupid...
man: *laughing* nope. here you go...

I went with orange. Not metallic, but orange none the less.

I can't f*cking wait! I'm gonna be paying two mother-fucking thousand dollars for this thing, it is gonna be pimped out in ORANGE ya'll!!

HOLLA!!!

...so many wars, settling scores...

Sun, 14 Mar 2010 16:48:57 GMT

Just taking a moment to pimp out K'naan's Wavin' Flag song. Now, I've loved the original since it came out and was really happy that they chose it for the Official song for FIFA this year.

But during the Olympics, pretty much anyone who's anyone in the Canadian Music industry headed to Vancouver to Bryan Adam's studio to re-record it for Haiti. K'naan is Hatian born and lives in Canada now, and what they've done is redone it to raise money for Haiti and did a video for it as well. And as much as I love the original, the Young Artists for Haiti version is equally as phenomenal.

Jully Black. Derryck Whibley. Pierre from Simple Plan. Hedley. Justin Beiber. Nelly Furtado. Fefe Dobson. Avril Lavigne. Jim Cuddy. Tom Cochrane. Drake. And a ridiculous amount of other people that I won't bore you with.

I don't know if it's available on US iTunes (I assume it is) and all proceeds are going to Haiti.

So yeah. Check it out. Buy it off of iTunes. AMAZING!

...just kidding, i never did stand up...

Sun, 14 Mar 2010 04:07:38 GMT

Can someone please tell me what happened to my sanity, because somewhere in the last 30 minutes I think I lost control of it.

It started innocently enough with me remembering that I still haven't seen the Lady Gaga/Beyonce video for Telephone. To which halfway through I realized I hated it and remembered that last week I was trying to see the video for Backstreet's song Bigger. My computer was being douchetastic and kept buffering so I said screw it and figured I'd go back later.

Well tonight was later. So as I'm watching Bigger and ~~promising I won't cave~~ caved, I see that they'd shot a video for Helpless When She Smiles.

Well the boys doing Karaoke in Japan and being all freaking ~~cute~~ whatever just ~~made me fall for them again~~ kinda but not really ~~really~~

Then I look at the other links at the side of the page and see Just Want You To Know. My mind has seriously done me a disservice in remembering how freaking hi-larious that video was. Just everything, from Nick's facial expressions, to Kevin (seriously!!!) to just everything about that damn video. And then I remember a night, almost 5 years ago in a bar in Pittsburgh where all it took was for leopardchic79 to go to the bathroom and I caved.

And I caved something fierce.

Of course, the situation isn't as dire this time. There are too many other factors this time to weigh into the situation. But I'll say, those four boys (really, just Nick and maybe Brian.. but definitely not AJ.. ok really just Nick) have made a pretty good case for themselves.

*thinks of pinto beans and j-squared*

I seriously haven't laughed this hard in what feels like years. Oh god.. ~~I miss them!~~

I am NOT caving. Not. I just like to take them out from time to time and play with them.

Second best caving memory?

"Good Girl.. good girl.. that's new... download that one..." *waits* 'if you want it to be good girl.. get yourself a .. bad boy...'

muahahahahahahahaha

...we were perfect when we started...

Sat, 13 Mar 2010 05:38:14 GMT

Should I be in bed?

Yes.

Am I?

Clearly not.

Wow. Now I'm just finding things to do to avoid going to bed.

1. What curse word do you use the most?
Fuck for sure. It does me well.

2. Do you own an iPod?
I do. I had an original nano named Lar-ray. He died. Then I bought Hermano (30 gig classic). He went down in a firey death of destruction. Now I have Mr Sulu (an orange 16gig nano)

3. What person on your flist do you talk to the most?
leopardchic79

4. What time is your alarm clock set to?
6:15am

5. Do you still remember the first person you kissed?
Yes

6. Do you remember where you were on 9/11/01?
I was at work

7. Would you rather take the picture or be in the picture?
Both

8. What was the last movie you watched?
Just watched Star Trek (again)

9. Do any of your friends have children?
yes

10. Has anyone ever called you lazy?
Yes

11. Do you ever take medication to help you fall asleep?
Yes

12. What cd is currently in your cd player?
A relaxation cd

13. Do you prefer regular or chocolate milk?
chocolate

14. Has anyone told you a secret this week?
yes

15. When was the last time you had Starbucks?
Sunday

16. Can you whistle?
yes

17. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
height

18. What are you looking forward to?
a month off of work

19. Did you watch cartoons as a child?
yes

20. Do you own any band t-shirts?
i definitely do

21. What will you be doing in one hour?
playing ds in bed

22. Is anyone in love with you?
prolly

23. What was the last song you heard?
the Beastie Boys song in Star Trek

24. When was the last time you cried?
Tuesday

25. Are you on a desktop computer or a laptop?
A desktop

26. Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos?
I want about 4 more tats

27. What’s the weather like?
rainy and cold

28. Would you ever date a girl/guy covered in tattoos?
yes

29. What did you do before this?
watched Star Trek with leopardchic79 for our cyber date

30. When is the last time you slept on the floor?
i don't remember

31. How many hours of sleep do you need to function?
I don't get much sleep and i seem to function so???

32. Do you eat breakfast daily?
I try

33. Are your days fast-paced?
Not anymore

34. What did you do last night?
went to physio and then came home to read

35. Do you use sarcasm?
by nature

36. How old will you be turning on your next birthday?
33

37. Are you picky about spelling and grammar?
most of the time

38. Have you ever been to six flags?
i don't think so

39. Do you get along better with the same sex or the opposite sex?
depends

40. Do you like mustard?
i live on it

41. Do you sleep on your side?
i used to, and then when i fucked up my knee i had to sleep on my back, now i'm used to that and i hate it

42. Do you watch the news?
every day

43. How did you get one of your scars?
I had a left ulnar nerve transposition

44. Who was the last person to make you mad?
probably someone on the subway

45. Do you like anybody?
no

46. What is the last thing you purchased?
gingerale

47. What side of the heart do you draw first?
left

48. Can you dive without plugging your nose?
no

49. What colour is your razor?
orange

50. What is your blood-type?
O something

51. Who would you want to be tied to for 24 hours?
j-pad, cmm, jensen, pinto beans.....

52. What is a rumour someone has spread about you?
oh god...

53. How do you feel about carrots?
I love them raw. cooked, not so much

54. How many chairs at the dining room table?
five i think

55. Which is the best Spice Girl?
gross

56. Do you know what time it is?
yes

57. Do you know all the words to the Fresh Prince Theme Song?
sure do

58. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator?
have a panic attack. the severity would be in relation to how high up in a building we were

59. What’s your favourite kind of gum?
cinnamon

60. T or F: All’s fair in love and war?
that is bullshit

61. Do you have a crush on anyone?
refer to question 51

62. Do you know how to use some words correctly, but not know the meaning?
I like to make up my own words and meanings

63. Do you like to sleep?
yes

64. Do you know which US states don’t use Daylight Savings Time?
no

65. Do you know the song Total Eclipse of the Heart?
yes

66. Do you want a bright yellow ‘06 mustang?
no

67. What’s something you’ve always wanted?
a laptop

68. Do you have hairy LEGS?
fuck yes. i have to shave them before surgery

69. Would you rather swim in the ocean or a lake?
either

70. Do you wear a lot of black?
yep

71. Describe your hair:
curly

72. Do you have Entomophobia?
*blank stare*

73. Are you an adult?
yes

74. Where is/are your best friend(s)?
'the Burgh'.

75. Do you have a tan?
no

76. Are you a television addict?
not really.

77. Do you enjoy spending time with your mother?
Yes.

78. Are you a sugar freak?
no

79. Do you like orange juice?
LOVE IT

80. What sign are you?
Leo *rowr*

And yeah. Because you know you wanted to know more about me... If you're still awake after all that, well done. Kudos to you!!

...i could write it better than you ever dreamed it...

Sat, 13 Mar 2010 05:19:04 GMT

Shamelessly stolen from leopardchic79

Because I think everyone should know more about me. Mainly because I'm just that awesome!

Lots of pillows or just one?
I sleep on one but have two or three more scattered around the bed

What kind of books do you read?
Almost anything. I love teen fic, romance, horror, bio, cultural studies....

What’s one thing you’ve wondered about today?
How people think they can get away with the things they try to at work

ZOMBIES OR ROBOTS: Which apocalypse is scarier?
Zombies. Hands down.

If you could be doing anything else at this precise moment, what would it be?
Chillin' with leopardchic79 having a movie marathon in person

What's your current fandom/obsession/addiction?
J2 (and friends), Pinto Beans, Reboot

Cake or cookies?
carrot cake or cheesecake

What websites do you always visit when you go online?
lj, yahoo mail, twitter, facebook

What was the last thing you bought?
some gingerale

Do you get cravings? If so, what do you crave?
i crave a lot of things, it's all dependent on my mood

What do you do to change your mood?
watch a movie or tv, read, listen to music, knit, curl up with zing or pes, talk to leopardchic79

What was the last meal you ate?
Indian (butter chicken)

Do you want to learn another language?
German, I still want to learn

Five things you can't live without.
1. my friends
2. my family
3. computer
4. Phone
5. music

Name 5 items that you can actually lay your hands on right now without moving – your computer doesn’t count.
1. Zingara
2. Gingerale
3. camera
4. cell phone
5. lamp

What was the last movie you saw in the theater?
Avatar

What are you looking forward to?
a month off of work?

...whammy...

Sat, 13 Mar 2010 05:03:23 GMT

Tonight was the big date night with leopardchic79 . Well, first I came home from work, watched the Young and the Restless (and can I say, everytime I go to write that, I write Yonge. Muahahhaa. No, not yonge st. julie, young....) Anyways, so I had to find out if they would find out for sure that Ashley's baby is actually Nick and Sharon's baby and how everyone would react to the news. Apparently, the only one who refuses to believe it is Ashley herself, and I know she's going to take that baby and run for the hills.

But with all of this, I get to see more of Billy Abbott, who I'm in lurve with, so yay me!!

Then I went out for dinner with a friend of mine and my mother for Indian. Which I loooove. Guh, where we went is absolutely amazing and it did not disappoint. To which I came home, got my computer and webcam running, slapped Star Trek in the DVD player and sat back to silent movie it up with Rhonda.

Best. Date. Night. Ever.

Only to be usurped by having her here (or me being there). But we're thinking this might be a weekly thing, which would be absolutely amazing.

We counted the amount of WTF faces from start to finish. If there are any you think we've missed, please feel free to add some in the comments section!!

1. Captain Robard when he sees Nero's ship for the first time.

2. Captain Robard talking to Ayel on the screen.

3. The cyber cop when he asks baby!kirk his name

4. Spock at the Vulcan Academy hearing when the leader says 'with all of your disadvantages...

5. The long faced alien during the whole scene at the club when Kirk and Uhura meet

6. Captain Pike's face after he whistles to break up the fight with the Cadets and Kirk

7. Kirk during the whole scene when he meets Bones on the shuttle to Starfleet

8. Kirk when Gaila pushes him under the bed because she promised she wouldn't bring boys back to her room

9. Kirk when Uhura can hear him breathing under Gaila's bed

10. The two instructors at the Kobayashi Maru at Kirk's 3rd attempt

11. Bones during the whole scene of the Kobayashi Maru

12 Spock when Kirk beats the Kobayashi Maru

13. Kirk when the Admiral calls his name at the hearing

14. Uhura when she's assigned to the Faragut

15. The ENTIRE crew on the bridge when they don't go into warp towards Vulcan

16. Bones seeing Kirk's hands swollen after he's woken up in sickbay

17. The entire bridge again when Nero references the 'vulcan crew member' Spock

18. Sulu, Kirk and Spock when Captain Pike assigns Kirk as First Officer to Spock

19. Kirk when Olsen tells him he can't wait to 'kick some Romulan ass'

20. Kirk again when Sulu tells him that his hand to hand combat training is fencing

21. The Romulan who is about to be burned to a crisp on the top of the drill when Sulu kicks him

22. Bones during the whole "I'm a doctor, I'm a physicist' conversation

23. Kirk on Delta Vega when he sees the dinosaur like creature coming after him

24. Spock!Prime's face when he sees Kirk on Delta Vega in the cave

25. Kirk when Spock!Prime tells him he's Spock

26. Kirk when Spock!Prime touches his face to mind meld him

27. Kirk in the entire scene with Scotty and Spock!Prime when they meet him

28. Scotty when he finds out the're from the future

29. Scotty when they're back on the Enterprise bridge and Spock is trying to figure out how they got on the ship in warp

30. Bones when Scotty says "i like this ship, it's exciting'

31. Spock talking to his father about his mother and he tells him he married her because he loved her

32. Everyone's faces when Chekov is saying how they can beam aboard Nero's ship after hiding in Titan's rings

33. Spock when Kirk slaps his shoulder roughly and says 'see, we are getting to know each other'

34. Kirk when Uhura and Spock are kissing on the beaming pad

35. Scotty when Uhura leaves the pad and Kirk and Spock are standing there awkwardly

36. Joe Quinto (we don't know his name in the movie) when Kirk and Spock beam aboard the Narada

37. Spock when Kirk offers Nero assistance out of the black hole

38. Spock when he meets Spock!Prime

39. Spock when Spock!Prime tells him good luck instead of Live Long And Prosper

40. Bones when Kirk walks past him as Captain and says "Buckle Up'

...my mind goes on a trip...

Tue, 09 Mar 2010 00:32:08 GMT

Wow. You know what sucks? Having your period.  *shrugs* Seriously, I hate it something fierce. Not just the obvious, but the emotional rollercoaster that you're on. The ridiculous hunger for things you don't ever eat and just the way I always feel so awkward in my body, like something's wrong, but I really don't know what it is.

Randomly, I wonder who I am and what they've done with the real me. A new Joey McIntyre song came on the radio and I just sat there, staring at my radio like it was from outer space with a distasteful look on my face. And dude, I wanted to MARRY him at one point. Marry.  Him. Seriously.

Crazy shit man.

It's probably me just growing up, but still. I never thought I'd see *this* day.

Also randomly, the Nikki Yanofski song "I Believe" from the Olympics. Still not tired of it.  I still absolutely love it.

Obligatory Oscar talk? Star Trek got robbed. ROBBED. As did Harry Potter. Just saying.

I wanted the chick from Up In The Air that was in Twilight/New Moon to win the Best Supporting Actress. Mainly because I hate Kristen Stewart and this would just be something funny because you have her, the "star" of the movies who couldn't act her way out of a paper bag, and this other girl who is a minor role is actually an actress. Because seriously, Kristen Stewart... watching you hurts me. Physically and emotionally and spiritually.

*nods*

*shrugs* That's all I really have to say about it. I don't usually watch the Oscars, but had quite the fun time talking to my girls on Twitter while I was listening to the Oscars and knitting. It was much more enjoyable that way. Especially since Avatar was the only movie I'd seen that was up for multiple awards and I did NOT want him to win best Director *hissboohiss*

ALTHOUGH, because I'm Canadian, and thus we must give props to our country and it's awesomeness at any and all opportunities, apparently the Hurt Locker was originally scheduled to go straight to DVD rather than have a theatre release. They didn't have a production company that was going to back it so they were going to go straight to DVD, and then they premiered at the Toronto International Film Festival and one thing led to another but they found a company to back them.

And the rest is history.

\o/ YAY CANADA!

/end ramble

...that's what i love about high school girls, i get older they stay the same age...

Sun, 07 Mar 2010 01:05:56 GMT

There are a few universal facts. As I sit here watching Dazed and Confused, reading fic and thinking harder than necessary about things, I've felt compelled to share.

1) Whenever I hear Sia's Breathe Me, I will always inadvertently think of Christian and Olli. I miss Verbotene Liebe and just the excitement ofa new translated clip up on youtube, watching it with leopardchic79 via messenger
2) I still know all of the words to Dazed and Confused and it brings me back to University where one of my friends and I met and became friends because of this movie and would just send each other random obscure lines from the movie and we had to give the person speaking, who they said it to and what was going on.
3) While I love Pinto, in the reboot fandom Chekov/McCoy is my favourite pairing. It came out of nowhere and i LOVE it!!

Okay yeah.

I thought there might be more but there wasn't. At least none that is coming to mind right now. sia. check. dazed and confused. check. chekov/mccoy. check.

...i want to decide between survival and bliss...

Sat, 06 Mar 2010 21:46:32 GMT

It is fan-freaking-tabulous outside. So beautiful. So sunny. Just so amazing. I love this weather. THIS is the weather I could live in year round. Where you can wear a hoodie and vest and not be too hot, but just wear the hoodie and not be too cold. *shimmies around and enjoys the beautiful weather*

And if it means that the snow is gone for the season, than it's just the better for it! \o/

I've had a very productive week at work and am thinking I'm getting back to myself. At least a happier version of myself. We've been ridiculously slow and earlier in the week I decided I can be like everyone else and just complain about everything and sit at the desk and do absolutely nothing, or I can be proactive and take some initiative and do something about it. So I did.

We've got multiple 'busy work' projects that have been handed down from the top of the chain, and while we're slowly chipping away at it, we've put other things on the back burner. One is purging old files. We are only legally obligated to keep files for 7 years before we can have them destroyed. We did a big sweep last year (since it had NEVER been done) and did some cleaning up. So now we're up to date and this year it was the 2002s that had to go. They're in boxes in the dark, musty, dusty, gross basement and I know that the guy I usually work with wanted nothing to do with them. Understandably so. So I said 'I'll make you a deal, you man the desk alone and I'll go down to the basement to work on the boxes.

Deal.

While I was down there, I came up with another project for me to tackle. So I approached my boss with that one, with a game plan and vague ideas. "GREAT IDEA" was what I was met with, so I started that Friday morning before heading to the basement to finish my purging.
It's renewed my spirits in what has been a very slow period and it's helping the next 3 weeks go by much quicker. Because god knows, it's going to drag.

So in good spirits last night after work, my mom wanted to meet me downtown so she could get some exercise and get out of the house further than a few blocks. So we planned to go to her work, get her T4 slips for her taxes and then just hang around downtown.   Now mind you, my finances are in a very depressing state of affairs. So what do I do to battle that? Buy stuff i a) can't afford and b) well a covered it!! Oh, and earlier this week I was hyperventalating about the state of my credit card bill. Oh but that's okay, if I'm already going to hell, I might as well enjoy the ride down! And of course, my mother is the best enabler I know and her response is 'if you want it, get it?'
"but I don't need it."
"but do you want it?"
"yes."
"then get it'.

Okay.

So I bought a few books. Three on knitting, a new novelization of SPN and a smutty Lori Foster book. And then wait.. lets go to Bath and Bodyworks. Oh wait, I need a scent bug because they're cool and smell good.  We also need soap (which we actually DID need). Oh, now lets go check out the Alice In Wonderland display at Sworovsky. OMG, isn't that key necklace AMAZING? (it was). Wouldn't it look so good on me (it did). Don't I just absolutely want it? (i do). So I bought it. *shrug*

Then we went out for Sushi. *double shrug* Screw it. It was delicious though. After we were done I was wishing that we could rewind time so we could eat again! LOL! Yeah, that good!!!!

And that's about it.    Today I've spent the day lazing and napping on the couch. Knitting (god, will this project ever end? It feels like I haven't even made a dent in the skine, despite the length of the scarf). And if the past week has been any indication, I'll be passed out by nine.

Wow. What an exciting adventuresome life I lead, eh!

...in all thy son's command...

Fri, 05 Mar 2010 02:12:39 GMT

I'm sorry, but I think it's absolutely ridiculous that the biggest piece of news right now coming out of Canada (at least that's how it's seemed on the news for the past 3 days) is whether or not to change the national anthem to be more gender neutral.  The big hullabaloo is whether to keep it, or to change it to...

'in all thy heart's command'

or

'thou doth in us command'.

Really? Parliament has NOTHING better to do than to spend countless time, effort and energy on THIS? THIS is the most important thing that they have to deal with right now?

Maybe they should focus on why Parliament has been porogued for the past 2 months. How about that? Or how about dealing with the fallout of one of the highest ranked officers on CFB Trenton is on trial for murder, not to mention the other crimes (such as breaking and entering and so forth) he's been suspected of. Oh wait. And our country's deficit?  That's pretty damn important. And unemployment rates.

Should I continue??

I mean, countries are being rocked by natural disasters, people are struggling just to survive and we're worried about whether O Canada is offensive to all of the women out there that are being left out since clearly it's only 'thy son's command'. It's not like the country didn't just spend every hour for the last 17 days singing the national anthem, I don't remember hearing anyone having a problem with it then.

And well, if you're going to get gender neutral, might as well become completely politically correct. "God keep our land, glorious and free'.  As a friend of mine pointed out, isn't that offensive to those who are atheist? Shouldn't we change that too? And why stop there, I'm sure almost anyone could find any lyrics in the song offensive, so why not just rewrite the whole thing? It's not like there's anything else happening in the world that could possibly be more important.

*rolls eyes*

And then they had this 'pop culture specialist' woman on the news tonight that was going on about how we need a song that represents our country and all of it's inhabitants and what we stand for. And this is a step towards that and blah blah blah. And then they were interviewing these kids and this one girl was going on about how it's not fair that boys get all of the attention and you KNOW some adult prompted her to say that.

Becuase COME ON!!!

I just find it ridiculous. If this WERE the only pressing issue that Canada had to deal with right now, I could say 'you know what, fine, lets deal with this.

BUT COME ON!

...thinkin' of the day...

Tue, 02 Mar 2010 02:14:07 GMT

Something I snagged from sisterspock Enjoy!

A - Available: Yes!?
B - Best Friend: leopardchic79
D - Dad’s Name: Mike
E - Easiest Person To Talk To leopardchic79
F - Favourite Food: I can't pick just one
G - Gummy Bears Or Worms: worms!
H - Hometown: Belleville
I - Instruments: the radio
J - Job: Client Care Representitive
K - Kids: ….. none of my own thank YOU very much
L - Longest Car Ride: Toronto to Alexandria Virginia and back
M - Milk Flavor: chocolate
N - Number Of Siblings: 3 step brothers and 1 half sister
O - One Wish: an energizer to beam me places
P - Phobias: more than i can list
Q - Favorite Quotation: “True friends stab you in the front'
R - Reason To Smile: leopardchic79 coming up for Pride
S - Song You Last Heard: I have no idea what song is playing right now
T - Time You Woke Up: 6:15
U - Unknown Facts About Me: I have ocd and gad
V - Vegetable: my faves are asparagus, bok choy and squash
W - Worst Habit: worst case scenarioing
X - X-Rays You’ve Had: chest, leg
Y - Your Favourite Pastimes: writing, reading, knitting, cooking, baking
Z - Zodiac Sign: Leo

...o canada...

Tue, 02 Mar 2010 01:41:21 GMT

I'm very proud to be Canadian. Not only did we poke fun of ourselves over and over last night during the closing ceremonies (I'm sorry, but giant mounties? giant beavers? all we needed were igloos and we'd have hit every stereotype. AMAZING!!!!) but we showed what it is to be Canadian.

The country was one big party last night, and I know Canadians around the world were cheering, realizing just how big the Van 2010 Olympics were for us. A chance to showcase who we are. What we are. And what we can do.

I do have to say though, hockey. I'm glad we won, if not just because there would be a lot of whining and crying and boo hooing today. So I'm grateful we did win that game. But at the same time, I'm very anti professional players in the Olympics. I think that all players for every country in every sport should be amateurs.

Wasn't that the whole point of the Olympics? You know, way back when? Why is it that in any other sport, no professional athletes are allow, but Hockey it's okay???

Lame.

And that's all I have to say about that.

My favourite moment of the games? Still, Alexandre Bilodeau's gold medal!!

Go Canada! WOO!!! \o/

...that was a good shot though, right?

Sun, 28 Feb 2010 15:29:55 GMT

So apparently Jared and Gen got married yesterday. This shows just how dedicated I am to the real life aspect of the fandom. I found out that he'd been engaged to Sandy via fic.

I found out that he'd broken up with Sandy via fic (okay, so TECHNICALLY, they'd broken up long before I got knee deep into the fandom, so it was pretty simultaneous of the finding out he was engaged and then not engaged ... so i'm not sure if it counts). I found out that he and Gen were dating and then subsequently enaged through my flist and then fic.

And now, the wedding.

My thoughts? *shrug*. The deep seeded fan!girl inside of me is a little sad. Another one bites the dust. LOL! But at the same time, it really doesn't affect me personally. I've noticed it vaguely affecting fic (which makes me kind of sad.. because it's all that people seem to be focusing on).

Hence, the reason I prefer AU fic. It hasn't been that way with all of my fandoms.

With Backstreet, I loved real life fic as much as AU. They were at par. With Pinto, I think I prefer real life. I haven't really found much in the way of AU with them, and that's okay. But for some reason, I prefer AU with J2.

Pretty much my favourite J2 (and subsequent pairings, although I do enjoy real life m2) authors are pretty much mostly AU, and I love it that way. I can enjoy the show, enjoy the pairing, enjoy my fantasies and not get too involved to the point of depression at something that really isn't depression worthy.

This is kind of reminding me in the early 2000s when Kevin married Kristin and Brian married Leighanne. Man.. wasn't that a mess? LOL!

...my eyes aren't glistening with the ghosts of my past...

Sat, 27 Feb 2010 17:18:40 GMT

An utter shit show. That's what it is outside my window.  Yes I know I live in Canada, and yes we get copious amounts of snow. And yes it's still TECHNICALLY winter, but come on *pouts and whines* We've gone all winter thus far (thankfully) with no snow, it was guaranteed that we were going to think (really, that I was going to think) that we'd be done for the year and we could chalk this up to a very fortunate winter for us.

Except not so much. It's ridiculous out there. And granted, it could be worse... but at the same time, we could have no snow. And that would be better!!! *sigh*

I just have to keep reminding myself that there is only 30 more days until my surgery, and then I'll be forcibly housebound and won't have to worry about what is going on outside of my window. *cheers* Granted, I am terrified (I have this 'issue' with hospitals and anasthetic and you know, having my knee opened up and cameras and scalpels being insert into it) of the actual surgery and the aftermath of 3 months of intense physio... but I have to keep reminding myself that September, October and November was definitely not a cake walk. And I know I can work through the pain, I know I can do what I need to do to get beyond it and strengthen the muscle and build the ligaments back to where they should be.

I just kinda don't want to!  LOL! I mean, I do, but it just took so much out of me the first time, to start over again is going to be a total drag.

On the upside though?  A month of free time. Beyond physio, I'll be able to catch up on the fic I have saved.. knit some.. watch the tv on dvd I have lined up and be refreshed.

My Knitting 101 class is over, which I'm actually a little sad over. I've really enjoyed the people in it, the projects and just the fun I've had. I'm obviously going to continue, and might take more classes with them, but for right now, it's done. In all, in the time I've been knitting, i've made 3 scarves and a hat. I made a little measuring error on the hat and instead of knitting for 6 inches, I only did 5... so it's small.. but it's funny and cute. And I'm going to keep it as my first completed hat! \o/

Now, to maybe weed through some of the stories I've got saved. I've noticed that some of my favourite authors have updated (and if you're looking for any amazing fic to read, check out my memories...

And then to curl up under a blanket (or ten) and just snooze the day away!!

...this photo of us it don't have a price..

Thu, 25 Feb 2010 01:21:02 GMT

I really don't have anything worth while to say. This week has been stressful piled on top of more stress with a side of stress. And then some. Work is in pure and utter chaos, which surprisingly, I am *not* in the middle of. Which is always shocking.

Shocking.

It does feel good to know that the drama is not centred around me for once. And it's also good to know that my boss not only recognizes the work that I do, but is very supportive of me and appreciates me. So yay for that \o/.

I'm getting closer to my surgery, and granted, it's still a month away, but it's going to be a short month if I really think about it. I've got all of my pre-op appointments to go to, and pretty much, as much progress that I've made in the past 6 months to now on my knee and leg, it's pretty much going to be all shot to hell. And then I'll be back to where I started when I initially fell. Of course, the recovery time will be longer (we're looking at about a year until my knee is even remotely back to where it was before I fell) and that is going to be a year of rehab and knee brace and just being careful. But hopefully, when it's all said and done, I can go back to walking and not worrying about every step and whether my knee will give out and I'll be curled up in a heap in the fetal position, rocking back and forth. Because that four months after the fall? Not fun in the least.

This friday is also my last knitting class. I think that I do want to continue though. So hopefully the place I'm going to will hold an intermediate course and I can further my knitting potential. I'm almost done my third scarf and I finished the hat we learned to make last week. And then all I need to do is learn how to darn the scarves and \o/ SUCCESS!! And we're supposed to be getting this humongous storm this weekend, so perfect timing for my scarf!!!

Buzz on the street is that Jared's wedding is this weekend. *awkward shrug* He was in my dream the other night. Oh goodness.. someone else was in my dream a few nights before that.. oh, hahahha.. *smacks forehead* Michael Rosenbaum. *that* dream was very nice. There was some hugging and cuddling. Jared's dream, not so much. He was very cold, despite us having to work together in the kitchen at the party we were at. So I'm not entirely sure what is up with the amount of CW folk in my dreams lately, and wondering where the eff cmm has been.. because if there is anyone that needs to be making an appearance in my dream, it's cmm! But I'll definitely take some Michael Rosenbaum. *giggles*

Okay. We have some lemon gelatto with my name on it in the freezer. It's too damn cold for frozen deserts but god knows I can throw another blanket over me if necessary!!!

...that girl they say she act so tough tough tough...

Tue, 23 Feb 2010 01:54:11 GMT

Things I'm sick of listening to. People talk about Men's Hockey. Who cares. Who cares. I don't. They were discussing it on the radio this morning, how tickets to the event originally were $50. Apparently, they were selling for $1000. The question was, if you had a pair of tickets, would you sell them for $2000, and go watch it in a bar and pocket the $1900 profit OR would you say forget it and go to the game, just to say you were there.

FUCK THE GAME! I'd have taken the $2000, watched the game with people in the bar and then had an extra $1900!

SERIOUSLY!

I'm also very sick of listening to the media and news go on about how disapointing our athletes have been in regards to obtaining medals this Olympics. God, is nothing ever enough. At first it was 'oh, we need to win our first Gold on Canadian soil. And then four golds later, it's still not enough? One of our athletes was saying that maybe we should not focus on what we haven't gotten and do focus on what we have, and I say well done!!! I'm very proud of our athletes. I'm proud of us in general, and god knows, it's not like we expected to match the States in a medal count. Can't we just be happy with what we have??

Wow.. I'm so very chatty tonight. Just totally had the longest conversation known to man with leopardchic79 about work drama and just drama in general. This is what happens when we go a weekend without chating!  LOL!! For a second I thought I saw smoke tearing from the keyboard.

Furthermore, we're getting snow like we're in the States or something.  Guh! I was very happy with our lack of snow this winter, and then Anthony Farnell decided to inform us that we were getting snow.  I had hoped he'd been wrong, but he wasn't. And apparently more is coming on Friday. Well I say boourns to that. BOOURNS!!!

In other news, I knit a hat this weekend. We learned how to knit a hat on Friday, learned how to read a pattern and were sent off on our way to knit it. I'd had a headache all weekend that turned into a migrane last night, but I found that until the migrane pushed through, the knitting did keep the headache at bay. I got about halfway done the hat on Saturday night and dropped a stitch.  I tried to pick one up elsewhere when I couldn't find the stitch but it didn't exactly work that way. SO when i got a bit further I saw this huge hole where the dropped stitch was, so I said 'screw this' and took the whole hat apart only to start again.

LOVE IT! It's tiny (too small for my head) but I love it. WHEEE!!!

Wow. I have far too much energy right now.

*twirls and faceplants*

...i fell in love with the girl on tv...

Sun, 21 Feb 2010 01:03:48 GMT

List all of the television shows you have on DVD, no matter how obscure or embarrassing. Even if you only own one season, list it. Let's see who has what!

Buffy The Vampire Slayer 1-7
Angel 1-5
Arrested Development Seasons 1-3
Boomtown 1
Freaks & Geeks 1
Numb3rs 1-5
Dante's Cove 1-3
Roswell 1-3
Without A Trace 1-2 (and 3&4 in PAL)
How I Met Your Mother 1-3
Greek 1-3
So Notorious1
Friday Night Lights 1-3
Supernatural 1-3
One Tree Hill 1-6
Heroes 1-3
The Simpsons 1-12
Unsolved Mysteries (all box sets)
Queer as Folk 1-5
X-Men Cartoon
Undeclared 1
Paranormal State 1-2
Newsradio 1-3
Magnificent Seven 1-2
Extras 2
Smallville 1-7
Dead Like Me 1-2
Star Trek The Original Series 1-3

... i believe in the power of you and i...

Fri, 19 Feb 2010 02:30:09 GMT

Olympic Fever is still raging. Coupled with Knitting Mania, it's chaotic in my house. Or.. not really.

Best interaction of the night...

goddess_julie : are you going online?
leopardchic79 : i don't think so, maybe later just to check email. i'm watching curling & playing ds right now. hehe
goddess_julie : i'm watching curling and knitting
leopardchic79 : *giggles* we're such old women lol
goddess_julie : RIGHT!

It's funny because it's true. I don't know when I became this old woman, but I'm not entirely complaining. I was veged out on the couch, knitting a scarf that is giving me grief that I just don't need *shakes fist at scarf* and thinking 'wow, I'm going to need to go upstairs soon if I want to get some DS time in before turning in.

WOW!

I got a phone call from my orthopaedic surgeon's office today. Apparently they got some OR time in March, so she was wondering if I wanted to change my surgery date from June 15th to March 30th. DO I!?!?!?!

Yes please.

At this rate, I'll be up and around by the time I was supposed to only be going IN for surgery. So now I've got to get things rolling for pre-op. I'm waiting for the hosptial to call me with a new pre-op phone consultation time, and I had to book an appointment with my family doctor for my physical, which can't be prior to 30 days to the surgery... And yeah, now that I'm going in NEXT MONTH (5 1/2 weeks) it feels so much more real. GUH!

But lets get'er done!! You know!

...there’s more than one way to see the world...

Thu, 18 Feb 2010 00:42:53 GMT

I have deemed today a 'knit free' day.

I've been knitting like a madwoman for the past two weeks, and while I love it (SO MUCH), I'm finding myself just getting lost in it. Just knitting whenever I'm not working, and I'm neglecting other things.

Like fic. And video games. And television. And just knitting like crazy.

I've had other things to do to occupy my time though, which has been good. Yesterday, I was on a mission to find the Team Canada Olympic Mittens for leopardchic79 . Apparently we've had them for forever up here and I was the only one who didn't know about them. Figures. And they've been wicked hard to get ahold of. So I went to The Bay (who is outfitting Team Canada) at the Eaton's Centre and checked there.

No such luck. They had youth sized (in excessive amount) but no adult. I took a look for some Alex Bilodeau swag, again. No such luck! Woh woh. On to The Bay at Yonge/Bloor. SUCCESS!!! *twirls* \o/ So that made me happy.

Add a second gold onto last night's games in Board Cross (Women!!!) and it was a perfect night.

Of course there was knitting, but my knit free day didn't start until today.

Tonight, however, my cousin, my aunt and my cousin's baby daughter came by. She turned 1 month old yesterday, and I haven't seen her since the day after she was born. So they came over for dinner, where I made Pasta El Fourno (sp?) and we sat around the table, drinking coffee, me holding the baby and just talking. PERFECTION!!!

My cousin mentioned to my mother that it was making me want a baby. I argued that the only kind of baby I want is one I can give back after a few hours.

It was nice though. Dinner, chatting and just seeing the baby!

Now. Fic! Prompting leopardchic79 to write the Olympics fic she'd mentioned *prodprod* and Olympics.

WIN!

Writer's Block: Compare and Contrast

Mon, 15 Feb 2010 16:00:41 GMT

What ten words would you use to describe yourself? If your friends were asked to describe you, how closely would all the lists match up?

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Ten words to describe myself. Hmmmm.

awkward
moody
random
loud
contrary
funny
loyal
sensitive
creative
extreme

Of course, as I'm looking at this list that took me far too long to compile, I'm thinking there are a thousand better words that I could have used...

obsessive
compulsive
anxious
pessimist
open
withholding
....

And to answer the question of how my friends would answer this question. God, I'm not even sure I want to know. They probably don't match up, but I'm not sure if that would be a good thing or a bad thing.

Wow. This entry has issues galore. I'm going to awkwardly moonwalk out of this situaiton doing the robot and singing 'under the boardwalk'. It's a shame that the people who would get that reference aren't on LJ.

Woh woh.

..what a day...

Mon, 15 Feb 2010 02:31:27 GMT

WE WON GOLD!!!

Men's Moguls Freestyle Skiing.

I might (read: do) have tears in my eyes right now. My chest is tight and I've got goosebumps all over my arms. When we were cooking dinner earlier we were watching CTV's coverage of the games and they're always showcasing Canadian Athletes and their stories of how they got to the Olympics. They had showcased Alexandre Bilodeau and his brother who has special needs. Alexandre was saying how his brother is his inspiration. The piece they showed almost made me cry.

To know that he was doing this for his brother, and if he won he would do everything he could to bring his brother up on the podium with him. He's the first Canadian to ever win gold in an Olympic Games on Canadian soil.

I've been feeling emo today. No reason, just have been. Uncomfortable, awkward, just restless.

This has completely brightened my day.

...so close yet so far away...

Sun, 14 Feb 2010 04:45:06 GMT

We were thisclose to winning our first gold on Canadian soil. We've never won gold at an Olympic Games held in Canada.  I thought, 'wow, wouldn't it be awesome if we won gold on the first day of the games/" Jen Heil almost got there, and then Hannah Kearney skiied right after and snatched that dream away from us.

Thanks America. LOL

I mean, of course I have the best best friend in the world and she even put aside her American Patriocy (is that even a word?) to cheer for us. It was in vain, since we didn't get it, but we got Silver and that's not bad at all!!!

I got home last night while they were still in the As at the opening ceremonies. It was beautiful, absolutely magical watching the countries enter the stadium for the ceremony. Just seeing the Canadian flags waving, and the amount of pride that each country had, not only for thesmelves but for each other.  And the countries where there were only one athlete competing, that was just as amazing as the countries that had 100+. I'll admit, the winter games aren't my favourite, I'd prefer the summer games, but I can't deny how much I love watching them anyways.

How inspiring and moving the games are.

I will say, I squealed when I saw Donald Sutherland and Bobby Orr carrying in the flag. And then to see Rick Hansen bringing in the torch... and Wayne Gretzky. I full out SCREAMED!! He's someone that either you love or you hate, I think. And I love him. I loved him when he played for the Oilers, I loved him when his dad would always be at my mom's restaurant back home and was just so nice.

In a not so nice rant about the Olympics, which I will keep short for fear of going off on a rant that I just won't ever stop from.. the protesters and protesting? Lame.  Epically lame. They're fighting against the wrong people. They're punishing the wrong people. And in the mean time, they're only worsening their own cases.

Knitting last night. I learned a new stitch, and thus, four new patterns. We'd been doing the knit stitch, well we learned to purl last night. Which admittedly, took me quite some time to get the hang of, but now am okay with it. I finished my first scarf that i was working on (and just need to darn the yarn now, which we'll do at class 4), and have started a new scarf that has a different pattern.

Next week, a hat. *whee*

I went to Wal-Mart this morning with my mother to do some shopping. Got some different sized needles and more yarn.  Pretty yarn, so I'm starting a collection for when I'm done this project and the hat.. I can start on stuff for myself and other people! VERY EXCITING.

So I pretty much spent the day alternating between reading Pinto (today was officially PInto Beans reading day), downloading all of Steve Carlson's music from iTunes, knitting and watching Olympics.

Tomorrow?

The same! \o/

Writer's Block: Sweet and Solo

Fri, 12 Feb 2010 15:58:42 GMT

Have you ever made up an excuse to avoid a social obligation so you could spend the evening by yourself? Do your friends and/or family understand when you need some quality time alone?

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I probably do this much more than is healthy. I like my alone time. I don't always need a big social gathering with a lot of people and loud music/frenzy. In fact, I'm probably more of a homebody than anything.

I do like to go out. I do like to have fun, but I'm more comfortable in a more quiet setting. And for the most part, I like to at least have a few nights a week where I can just do whatever I want, by myself and be comfortable. Whether it be just watching TV/movies or going online to read/write/surf around, or play DS/Nintendo... or just do absolutely nothing.

My family definitely understands. A lot of my need to spend time alone and away from social situations is due to my anxiety disorder, and my family gets that. My friends, at first were a little put off by me cancelling plans, or bowing out but once I explained why I sometimes don't come out or do anything they could see where I was coming from better.

There are times when I think that maybe I'm staying in and alone at an unhealthy level, but then I realize that I'm happy and that's what matters most. I do like to go out (mostly in smaller groups rather than huge crowds) but on my own terms and when I'm comfortable with it. But the bottom line is that I'm happy and that's all that really matters.

...what are you, hamburglar...

Fri, 12 Feb 2010 02:55:23 GMT

oh.

my.

god.

Eric Kripke you're going to kill me. Gonna kill me DEAD!!!

I don't think I breathed once in the past 20 minutes. I've gone from laughing hyserically, to wanting to mount Jared to watching with revulsion to feeling my heart being ripped out of my chest.

If ever there was a tv show with an entire "Season of Win", it's sure as hell this season of SPN.

I don't want this mind fuckery to end, but I don't know how much more I can take.

But I am loving every single second of it.